Depression isn’t pretty, it invades every sector of a persons life souring the things that once brought joy making them a source of torment rather than pleasure. Instead of seeing the joy of your beautiful tarot collection, you see the money spent, or the decks you couldn’t connect with. It’s a horrible monster that distorts your view of the good that does actually surround you.
I’ve battled with a form of PTSD on and off for a few years, mostly I am quite well, but anxious/stress panic moments occur and times when I feel like a failure, at these times I have what I call safety checks I have to perform. These feeling do always eventually invade my relationship with the tarot, making it seem foolish or futile. It makes just living hard, let alone anything else.
I think a lot of my problems stem from a childhood that was slightly chaotic, I have fairly low self-esteem. I keep trying to build myself up, without sounding bigheaded. I am good at tarot, I’m good at lots of stuff. And so are you.
I have a few tips for taroting when you are feeling this way (I’m not a doctor, please see a doctor – none of this constitutes medical advice).
- Seek professional help, go before things get harder. Talk to friends. CBT cognitive behaviour therapy could be an option.
- Take a break from Tarot if you need to. Don’t do anything rash like flog them on eBay you’ll regret it, put your cards away and concentrate on feeling better about yourself.
- Try and do something that will improve your living conditions, tidy things away, out the rubbish out.
- Live in the now, try some mindfulness – you can download an app from the interwebs. It’s hard but worrying about tomorrow won’t help if you can do something do it.
- Take a walk, take a few. Have a long soak in the bath. Put some happy music/tv on.
- Remember that you are a being of unfathomable power and potential, yes you are.
- Try to being thankful. Work on a list of the good things that you see.
- Remember this is a chemical or hormonal imbalance, it’s not you yourself
- Treat yourself as you would treat a friend feeling similar, put yourself to be bed early and rest, eat good food. Speak kindly and gently.
- Speak to your doctor, yes I know I said it already, but I’m a nag.